Sunday, 30 June 2024

Torment by Fiona Carstairs


 They’ll say I’m a bitch

They’ll say I’m a fool

They’ll say I’m hard hearted

 They’ll say I’m real cruel

They’ll say I deserve

Everything that I get

They’ll say I ‘ll live to regret

The leaving of husband

Children and home

I’m running away

I’ll be all alone…

No one will care as I’ve cared less

They’ll harden their hearts to my distress

But who can judge the reasons that go

On  the mind  the torments that find

Their way to the brain

Until all that is left is to go or remain

Remain and go under remain and submerge

Those dreams and ambitions

That die and then surge

That rise and then fall

Like a Springtime flood

The racing you feel in the blood

And how do you ever know

You’ll be still

Until after your death?

At the sound of the Knell?

(written late 1970s)

2 comments:

Jennie said...

Quite a passionate poem Fiona which reads almost like a confession. Beautifully constructed.

Irena Szirtes said...

It is a passionate poem! The older I get, the more I realise we shouldn't be quick to judge....there's always lots of 'propaganda' around where there's a break up. Like poems that make me think 🤔